400

This is my 400th post. 400 times I have sat behind my computer and talked about God, the world, my struggles, my successes, the church calendar, holiness, surgeries, anger, anxiety, and everything in between. 400 times I have shared a piece of who I am. Today is no different, except I am acknowledging the fact that I have now done this 400 times!

Do you ever just feel really crappy? Like not physically, but down in the who you are part of your heart. When you see just how much you still need to work on and you just feel flat out unlovable.  Looking at our own junk is rough and some would say unhelpful. However, if we do not regularly do some serious self-examination, how do we  know how to improve? We need to have good people in our corner when we are face to face with our own feelings of inadequacy.

I know I have talked about accountability before, but this is beyond just keeping a person from falling back into old patterns of sin. This is someone cheering you through the rough patches. They are there to give you practical help and advice when all you can see is darkness. They keep shining so the darkness doesn't consume the progress that has been made.

Ok. That was pretty rambley and weird and not much of a 400th post. But to be honest, I don't feel like doing a happy 400th post. I don't feel like doing much of anything. I am focused on the list of practical things Cindy gave me to help me through this weird patch.