Internal Dialogue

This is a bit more light-hearted than usual; however, it shows a side of me and my walk with God that is very real.

Sunday night I went to bed about 10pm and fell asleep no problem (which is monumental, because that is not always the case). Then, oh then, 1:38 am I got a wake up call from my brain. Here is the conversation that ensued.

Brain: Hey, everyone, I have some important things to discuss.
Body: No! We need sleep for work.
Heart: Actually, I could go for a good discussion.
Body: GUYS!!! No, tomorrow is Monday and we have a BIG week.
Bladder: Since we're up...
Body: Bladder, I will listen to you and take care of your needs then we are ALL going back to sleep.
a few minutes later....
Body: Ok, everyone is comfortable, warm, cozy time for sleep. That includes you brain.
Brain: Why am I singled out?
Heart: I thought we were going to have some time for a conversation.
Body: Guys we do no have time for this.
Emotions: Oh, hey everyone, sorry I am late to the party but I brought anxiety with me.
Body: Well, I just lost my vote. Please hurry so we can get back to sleep at a decent time.
Stomach: Emotions, did you have to bring anxiety, it upsets me.
Brain: Stomach, I will give you some meds, but you need to shut-up.
Stomach: Thanks for meds but your attitude needs work.
Heart: Seriously, when are we going to get to work? I have a lot to offer right now. Ok, I will just lay it out here, our talk doesn't feature me enough.
Brain: ARE YOU KIDDING?!?! It is all about you.
Emotions: Hey, I thought you might want fear to join anxiety for the night.
Stomach: Great....
Heart: Brain, you seriously disagree with me?
Brain: Yes, Your whole thing is mushy, full of your feelings and shows you off. I barely get two sentences.
Heart: You do realize we wouldn't be doing this if it weren't for you?
Brain: Your point?
Stomach: More meds please, and some peppermint oil while you are at it.
Body: We are no longer comfortable, lets roll around 47 times. And is it hot in here?
Brain: Body you are not a contributor currently.
Heart: My point is that we can't always be cerebral or we will lose people in the minutia.
Brain: I do not like your reasoning. Anything can be rationally explained to rational people.
Heart: We are not talk reason, we are talking relationship.
Brain: Relationship... barf. This is one of those God things isn't that no matter how much I fight you, how much reason I throw at you, or how many feelings emotion brings, you are going to win.
Heart: That is basically were we are at.
Emotions: Hey, everyone I would like to add a little something to this process before heart gets the final decision. This is going to be HARD on all of us. This doesn't actually seem like a good idea.
Body: I, too, would like to chime in. I need rest and if we go with heart that will be severely compromised.
Brain: See heart, it isn't just me. Lots of us are concerned about where you will drag us all.
Heart: I am choosing to trust God on this one. And you all will be fine. Stop being such babies.
Emotions: Hey pride called and wants to be a part of this.
Pride: Do you really want everyone to know what you have already written? and now you are considering adding more?!?! Do you care about me at all?
Heart: Actually, I don't care about you.
Pride: Alrightythen.
Brain: That escalated quickly.
Heart: Ok, so we are doing this. I am tired of arguing with all of you and I think body wants to go back to bed.
Body: Definitely want to go back to bed, but I could use some more discussion about where you are headed.
Stomach: I think I need to puke.
Brain: We aren't puking today have some water and chill out.
Stomach: Ok, ok, but I want it to be noted that I am still not doing well. And I too think this is a really bad idea.
Heart: This discussion is now over. We have a decision. I apologize in advance for any discomfort you feel as a result.
Body: But now I am wide awake, what should I do?
Emotions: I have plenty of things I can give to the brain to work on. Brain, here is anxiety, fear, feelings of unworthiness, and you can probably fill a lot of gaps with memories of every stupid thing we've ever done.
Brain: Thanks for the starting point, I know where to go from here, Emotions. Heart, you are an idiot that I unfortunately have to follow.
Stomach. Emotions, what did you just do? I am worse.
Body: Well, I guess I'll sleep tomorrow....