Identity

Dawn has a way of sending my little devotionals that are extremely poignant and perfectly timed.

"'Then the LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground. He breathed the breath of life into the man’s nostrils, and the man became a living person.' There are things in our life that we identify with such as friends, music, job, or grade in school, etc. Sometimes we look to these things to find our identity in them. But really, we are more than the category we define ourselves by. These things don’t completely reflect and define who we are. Our identity is found in our creation as a son or daughter of the Most High."

I have a hard time with things and people defining who I am or what I am. I hear voices telling me that I am not enough and never will be. I hear a voice that reminds me that I am a disappointment. I see friendships drift apart and jobs change. I can also remember very clearly the first time I failed a paper in college. I saw myself instantly as a failure. There is a doctor's voice saying things that I don't like to hear or want to hear. How do I keep myself from letting those things define me? Honestly, I have no idea right now. I know intellectually, philosophically, and theologically that I am supposed to rest in my identity as a creation of the Most High. However, I have no clue how to put that knowledge into practice.