The Name: Part 4

Another week has come and gone. I am actually writing this at 11:48pm on Saturday with the intent to post it tomorrow. Sundays have become the day to post about names/attributes of God. When I started this, now four weeks ago, I had every intention of doing five names a week in alphabetical order, giving a brief description of each and possible a reference verse. Well, God has had other plans for this from the beginning and I believe that the first post He let me feel some semblance of control and a self-made plan. I feel like, even though it greatly pains me to do so, this is the week to talk about the Redeemer.

Redeemer: the one who saves, buys back, restores, or provides redemption. When referring to the Christ, Redeemer can also mean the one who establishes holiness through salvation. We sang a song at church that I have heard many times on the radio, Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave. However, I couldn't sing it. I stood there hurting, thinking, struggling. So here are the lyrics my comments will be in (italics inside of parenthesis):

Seems like all I could see was the struggle (the struggle is always right at the forefront of my mind)
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past (my past screams at me. It is so much a part of who I am that I cannot even say that it is totally the past.)
Bound up in shackles of all my failures (Failures surround me)
Wondering how long is this gonna last (I cannot even tell you how many times I have wonder when the pain would end.)
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son
Stop fighting a fight it's already been won" (I don't know how to stop fighting!)

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I'm redeemed (Why to I feel so bound then? I am who I used to be and maybe even worse. It hurts. I hate who I am. I can't do this anymore!)

All my life I have been called unworthy (cuts me to the core of who I am)
Named by the voice of my shame and regret (Shame keeps me hidden....)
But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet (I feel like I am too far gone)

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be

Because I don't have to be the old man inside of me
'Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I've got a new name, a new life, I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, 'cause I'm not who I used to be (WHY DOES THIS HURT SO BAD? WHEN WILL YOU MAKE IT STOP?? PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!)


Only the Redeemer can bring true freedom and wholeness to my heart. Yes, He often times uses people to speak life, healing, and wholeness to the deepest wounds and I am grateful that He does. He also uses people who gently come along side of me to show me the way; however, He is the only one that can provide salvation and redeem my past, present and give me a future.