Waiting

Waiting is hard. Waiting for answers. Waiting for a test to begin. Waiting to hear the voice of God. Waiting on a friend who is running late. Waiting for the bell at 3:05. Waiting is a part of life. And to be quite honest, I am not good at it. Also, I am completely tired of it. I need want answers desperately. I hate waiting, especially in doctor's offices and hospitals. They smell funny; I usually don't feel well if I am there; and often times the waiting is met with news I would rather not hear.

Yesterday we sang Chris Tomlin's song Everlasting God. It talks a lot about waiting for God and how strength will come as we wait. I feel at my most vulnerable and weak at the moments of waiting desperately for God or answers. Scripture clearly states that those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. I find that impossible to believe, though. I feel like I have been waiting, begging God for months and months now getting weaker and weaker. Why can't I believe that God is enough even in the waiting?